2002-07-27 - 12:26 a.m.

Just a couple of days ago, everything seemed so perfect, but tonight, it just feels like my whole world came crumbling down. Isn't it amazing how just one thing going wrong, can make you feel like everything is so bad?

It's hard to adjust to something new after having one certain thing for a couple of years, 3 years to be specific. But, I do know that this is the best thing. I mean, I'm really not a bad person, and I deserve more than someone telling me that I'm stupid and annoying every single day. I just don't understand me. We'll just call this certain someone "he", although I'm sure you all know who I'm talking about.

Anyways, he told me that he hated me the other day, and that he never wanted to talk to me again. I know he didn't mean that, but still, no one deserves to hear things like that. Ofcourse, he ended up apologizing later on, but even after that, why do I feel that I can change him and make him stop being so mean to me?

Well, tonight we both realized that it's just not going to happen. After 3 years of being off and on, and after spending half of our high school years together, we finally see that we aren't compatible. I'm so mad because I wish we could have done this 3 years ago. Why did we have to wait so long to decide that we aren't right for eachother? I know that I'll never love anyone like I loved and still do love him. But, I know, and I think everyone else knows that I can be happier without him.

I just feel so blah right now. I'm not in a bad mood, I'm just not in a good mood. I just want to talk to someone.

Wow, this was a pretty dramatic entry for only being the second one. Oh well, enough rambling, sulking, and blah blah blah tonight.

If anyone knows where I'm coming from, tell me, please.

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